- Motto: "I'd just like to remind you all that I'm best. Thank you."
- Weapon: Mighty Ear
Well, I'm in 6th Form now. For those who don't know, that's like a cheap imitation of College or something.. Working for A and AS Levels... I don't even know, really.
I'm thinking of quitting, but apparently that brings with it an entirely new set of problems.
The reasons I want to quit are basically because I'm totally uninterested, unhappy, under-stimulated and I feel like the whole things dragging me down. I've started skipping a LOT of my lessons (having already dropped one earlier in the year). It also conflicts a lot with my very 'off' sleeping patterns, finding myself only tired around the time I have to get ready (prompting my skipping lessons).
If I have to be honest, I only opted for 6th Form to have some kind of social environment in which to work. I don't see my friends often, and I rarely leave the house for anything (then again, I leave my bedroom even less so).
Now, the complications. I told my mother this, and within a second she was screaming and shouting that this was no way to make her proud and that if I did, I'd be shipped off to my Dad's (from Bristol to Kent). Meaning no social interaction whatsoever (trust me, where he lives, I wouldn't WANT to know anybody). All of my friends would be very far behind, and I'm far from interested in starting another life altogether just yet (I'm 16 for christ sake).
My Mum's suggesting I get into some form of employment, a full-time job (if I'm not going to go to school). This is difficult, because a life behind the tills is no better than behind a desk, frankly. I'm already depressed enough that my life is pretty directionless at the moment.
I am getting paid to draw up some CD Covers for a musician, and this is my only form of income (though we haven't quite worked out the full deal yet, many things are still in the works, so, no money yet).
I'm stuck. I know I should probably find some fulltime job that's at least rewarding in more than just wages, but it's difficult to find work in artistry/writing where I am.
Just had to rant *yawn*.