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I'll tell you what scares me to death:

Parasites and tornadoes. Parasites scare me because of the thought of some pest infestation eating, breeding, and living in your body is downright horrific. Tornadoes scare me because I have no control and it could destroy my house, kill my babies, and put a tree limb through my head.

*shudder*

Deep water and/or being unable to breathe.

My future, sounds cliché.

But its the truth, I am scared to death of what's coming my way.

Oh, and heights literally paralyze me.

Needles, I can't even see them on tv or in a movie.

When I see one piercing skin it feels like I have a million needles puncturing me all over my body.

I have found that things I loved as a child now terrify me.

I couldn't enjoy swimming in the ocean anymore. I could only wade, and I wouldn't allow my children in it. I am scared of jellyfish (I once saw thousands of dead jellyfish on the beach after a hurricane. Eeek)

And flying, oh god, is it a white knuckle ride now. I am convinced the plane is going down when it feels like we descend a little. Nightime + rain = sheer terror.

Oh, and lightning. I will NOT go outside when there is lightning. I even once sat in a car for half an hour during a thunderstorm because I was afraid to make the fifteen feet trip to the house. I am slightly better about that now. I just run for my life.

i fear ever being admitted to a hospital and not being in an icu...those nurses scare me.

i'm actually afraid of the dark. not nearly as much as i used to be, but not being able to see scares me.

I have a few. Anything sharp near my neck. I saw Faces of Death as a child and it sort of messed me up a bit. Alien abduction. I have no idea why, it just bothers me. Drowning/suffocation. I can't even sleep with sheets of blankets near my face.

Original Sin wrote:My future, sounds cliché.

But its the truth, I am scared to death of what's coming my way.

That tends to worry me too. Luckily I'm focused enough on today to not think about it.

I'm afraid of dying from an extremely painful disease..

My greatest fear is that despite all my creative ideas and interest in crazy topics like the 4th dimension and armchair astrophysics, I'm still a social retard, and put that on top of my ADD, I truly do appear stupid to people that don't know me.

That's my greatest fear. That I grew up believing I was smart, but it's lies.

Leading an unsatisfactory life.
Being controlled by others.
Realizing I've been living a lie, or just plan living a lie.
Forced bodily mutilation... though I'd assume that goes to #2.

Not much else I can think of.

I gotta ask: how many people suffer from mental abnormality here? I gotta ask-- the count seems high. I know I have ADD in both sides of my family, and have been suspected of that, depression, and Aspergers for years now.

I will openly admit I have a few mental issues. I've developed some serious trust issues, and no longer date.

Deep water and drowning for me, just the thought of it other than that its clowns and haveing my head sawn off by some Muslim nut case.

Having my kids taken away from me or finding out that despite my best efforts I find out was a lousy father & my kids would sooner spit on me than listen to anything I might have to say. I guess failing as a father would sum it up.

....That & the dark. Though I'm 27, I have an over-active imagination & while I don't really see monsters & stuff, I can imagine all kinds of crazy sh*t hapenning that I wouldn't be able to see untill it was too late.

relictor wrote:Deep water and drowning for me, just the thought of it other than that its clowns and haveing my head sawn off by some Muslim nut case.

Thats another reason to keep sharp things away from my neck. I end up watching things I really shouldn't.

DesalationReborn wrote:I gotta ask: how many people suffer from mental abnormality here? I gotta ask-- the count seems high. I know I have ADD in both sides of my family, and have been suspected of that, depression, and Aspergers for years now.

I've been struggling with depression for awhile.

Haven't found a way to really cope with it all that much yet.

I tried antidepressants but when I was on them all I thought about was killing myself.

I honestly believe I may have Aspergers.

I've never seen a doctor about it, mainly because I can't afford it and can't bring myself to actually ask for help.

It's either that or I have an extreme case of social anxiety, or maybe a combination of both.

Being burnt alive or trapped in in the dark in an extremely small space, like pressing in on you small, with no way out.

Confrontation with aggressive people also scare me, unless I'm also in a mood to be removing teeth. Then I end up almost scaring myself in the aftermath at the thought of what I want to do to these people who get me pissed in the first place because I have an incredibly deep sadistic streak.

But all in all, being barbecued is probably the number one fear...

I should probably actually answer this if I plan to post.

I don't have any unreasonable fears. I don't mind heights or animals unless I'm in actual danger. What I do hate is public speaking. Being the center of attention has never been my thing and I can freeze up completely.

Original Sin wrote:

DesalationReborn wrote:I gotta ask: how many people suffer from mental abnormality here? I gotta ask-- the count seems high. I know I have ADD in both sides of my family, and have been suspected of that, depression, and Aspergers for years now.

I've been struggling with depression for awhile.

Haven't found a way to really cope with it all that much yet.

I tried antidepressants but when I was on them all I thought about was killing myself.

I honestly believe I may have Aspergers.

I've never seen a doctor about it, mainly because I can't afford it and can't bring myself to actually ask for help.

It's either that or I have an extreme case of social anxiety, or maybe a combination of both.

Visited a few psychiatrists to soothe my family's worries, and have been suggested a few things, but my own personal code and reliance on willpower's kept me from getting an official diagnosis, ie. pills.

I find, when I'm in a rut, I can do something positive, activities which I'm quite emotionally adverse to at the time, to get me in brighter spirits. Restarting my old workout regiment and going out with friends I haven't seen in a few months do great.

Death. Particularly painful death, but also the thought of my loved ones being sad when I'm gone.

Also, a Zombie Outbreak. I love Zombies, they're great for fiction, and, with all the variations (Smart, dumb, fast, slow, etc.) they're almost as versatile as Vampires.

Oddly, I'm not afraid of Vampires, although I was as a child. I would be pretty cool with being a Vampire. I'm already good at being nocturnal. Plus, Vampires get laid, like, all the time. And it's not normal people sex, it's super kinky crazy VAMPIRE sex.

But the thought of a Zombie outbreak terrifies me. Mostly in that I don't know what I'd do in that sort of situation.

Also, if other people are admitting it, I guess I can say I have "Issues" with darkness. It's not the normal "WAH WAH I DON'T LIKE IT!!" But I can FEEL things moving around me. Walking down a dark hall I can feel something following me. And I full well believe in ghosts.

Also, I stopped watching Nightmare on Elm Street, and all of it's related franchises. I found it does not help with the above Darkness Issues.

And anything bug-like. Spiders, flies, bees especially. In fact, anything relatively like a bee, including wasps, ESPECIALLY wasps.

I would have said the Toxic headcrabs in Half Life 2, but I got over that.

There is just something creepy about the feeling of being watched by something in the darkness that you can't see. Ever so often I just get that feeling and the hair on the back of my neck stands up. There's probably nothing there but you never know.

On the topic of medication, I lucked out and I'm on a high dose of something for migrane prevention that also doubles as an antidepressent.

Spiders, closely followed by scorpions. Some people, which I know sounds kind of strange but I just get this feeling when I see them that I should avoid them or not trust them in the slightest. Sometimes I'm scared in the dark, sometimes absolutely terrified, but sometimes it doesnt bother me. I'm not really scared of ghosts, at least the ones that live with me and at my parents, they can startle me pretty badly. But I know they don't mean any harm. I know it sounds bad but seeing my mom's side of the family on the holidays. They always fight and snip at each other and it always leaves me wanting to run away screaming.

Doesn't it feel good to get this all out? Ok, here's another one for me: the fear of somehow being decapitated or my head being crushed or mutilated. I refuse to ride behind a truck carrying logs because I imagine that scene from Final Destination 2. You never know!

I don't like going up the stairs in the dark. I had loud stairs in my last house and I swear it sounded like someone was always two steps behind me! Chalk that up to another overactive imagination.

relictor wrote:haveing my head sawn off by some Muslim nut case.

That's bad, but not as bad as some other stuff.


How about polluting, bullshit China with their brutality-raperoom-police deciding the West is too much of a threat after all, once the Olympics sheds light on their horrible dog's dinner of a country and they decide they better just blow us all up to be safe?

They've been practicing war games.

And I'm right across the water from San Fransisco. I'm right in that really bad burn alive zone in the event of a nuclear explosion. Probably won't be leaving this town anytime soon either, since my life is here.


Now that's fear.

deep water, wasps, and bees.