G1Sizzle wrote:Rodimus, people with addictions often are out of control of their habits. It's part of the disease. Until you've dealt with it yourself, you have no idea what you're talking about.
I have dealt with it, and I do know what I am talking about. I consider myself very lucky and very strong for having beaten my addiction on my own. No doctor, no support group, nothing. Alcoholism is different than actual pill abuse, but the principle is the same: I craved something that was destroying me in the process of making me feel good. The good effects get shorter and shorter while the damage grows and takes a bigger toll every day. And when I've spent half my paycheck on booze before I even got paid, I wondered why I had a job in the first place, when I couldn't remember most of my day I was so messed up. And one day, I looked in the mirror real hard and what I saw was definitely not encouraging. I was a 25-year-old alcoholic college drop-out with a dead-end job, no family and no future. I lived in an overpriced shithole apartment on the bad side of town and I was staring at the bottom of a deep, dark hole. Unfortunately I can't remember the exact day, but I vowed to myself I would never be in that shape again, and here I am over 3 years later, and in a much better shape. I do have a drink once in a while when an occasion calls for it, but I have what so many others in my position don't: self-control. I know damn well it isn't easy. It didn't work for me the first time I tried. But the point is, I knew there was something wrong, and I kept trying. Alcoholism took 3 of my 4 grandparents, as well as my father and some other relatives. I made myself determined to not go down that road. So yes, I have dealt with it and I do know what I am talking about.
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