by cybercat » Fri Sep 04, 2009 6:13 am
If the repair bots start seeming a little anime-style moe, I can only blame it on the five hour Ouran High School Host Club marathon I was watching as I wrote this scene.
Watch for some trust manipulation here.
Two sections today, in case you want to barf at the sweetness of Flareup. Blackout's here to help.
VI.
The repair bots’ frightened alarm hit his comm as Barricade was making his way back to RB Beta. Not the most articulate creatures in the best of situations—apparently fear knocked out what little sense they had. Barricade stepped up his pace, just below a run. Short bots who ran got laughed at, he’d learned the hard way. He didn’t have to learn the same lesson twice. Unlike some bots he could name.
He cycled through the repair bay doors to the sound of repair bots squealing. Most of them huddled along one wall, clicking and fretting nervously over one of their own who laid limp and unmoving.. One or two still bravely attempted to approach the cradle where the cycle bot was adding her own gratuitous decibels to the general din.
“Get away! Get away!” she shrieked, swiping the air in front of the approaching repair bots.
“Stop,” Barricade said, calmly. The repair bots froze in position, just like they practiced in countless drills. After a cycle, Flareup stopped swinging and squealing. She looked up at Barricade with liquid-glossed eyes.
“Please keep them away from me.” Her voice trembled. Good. She was already looking to him for help.
“They will not harm you,” he said. He signalled the cluster on the floor. They picked up their fallen comrade and scuttled off into a side room. Barricade picked up one of the ones that had been trying to approach Flareup. Couldn’t fault their courage. If courage meant programming over common sense. “Repair bots are entirely harmless. See?” He let the bot clamber up his arm. It pricked up its entire sensor array, and snuffled its way up his arm, around his head, and down to his chassis. With a bleep of satisfaction, it got to work tightening a few loose bolts.
“I don’t care. I don’t like them.”
“Flareup,” he said, “They are here to repair you. Without them, you cannot be repaired. You need to let them help you.” Probably a good idea not to tell her that before she’d been brought back online, there’d been dozens of the things climbing all over her. Send her into permanent feedback loop.
“No. I’m fine. I-I don’t need repairs.”
He let the absurdity of her statement pass without comment. “How about one? Let one come near you. I will be right here.”
“They attacked the humans.”
“They were frightened. Just like you are. And the humans were invading their home. They had never seen a human before.” The repair bot crawled its way down Barricade’s other arm, where it busied itself testing the brake pads. He held up his arm. “You see it is not harming me.”
“But that’s because you’re one of…them.”
Big leap. Time to play on that Autobot sensitivity. “Flareup. Do you trust me?”
She faltered. “N-well, I don’t know. I guess so.”
“Trust me,” he said. He held out the repair bot. “I will not let it harm you. The instant it does something that hurts you, that will be the end.”
“Why? Why do you care?”
“I would like you to be repaired. It really is that simple.” More precisely, he hoped she was that simple. But the more things he could ‘give’ her, the more she’d feel that Autobot indebtedness to him. And the more he could erode the ‘evil Decepticon’ stereotype….
She still looked wary. “A warrior needs to be brave,” he added. Sometimes knowing Starscream’s ridiculous ideology came in handy. Like when he could spout entirely inappropriate aphorisms like this. And manage to sound convincing. In reality, just a bunch of crap cobbled up by those who were most expendable so that they could feel their numerous and painful deaths were somehow worthwhile. He supposed he didn’t begrudge them that.
She reached out for the bot, shrunk back, reached out again. The bot hesitated, and then jumped from Barricade’s hand onto her arm, where it began again, on full sensor snuffle. She watched it as it worked its way slowly up her arm, pausing to airblast grit from her joints, or dab protective primer on deep scores in her paint. “It kind of tickles,” she said.
“You do not have repair bots?” He knew the answer, of course. Time to test her honesty with him.
“No. Well, I’ve never seen any. We have medical bots, but they’re, well, like us.”
“Fully sentient, you mean.”
“Yes, and big. And they can talk. These can’t talk, right?”
“Not really. They can generate simple reports, but most of their communication is sensory. They are very primitive.”
“He seems to be enjoying himself. Oooh!” The repair bot popped up in front of her face, flashing lights in her eyes to test her ocular reflexes.
“Would you like me to stop it?” Stupid repair bot could have ruined everything.
“No. It’s okay. Just…startled me.” The repair bot bleeped at her and climbed up her face to the top of her head. It tapped delicately at the seams in her helmet, testing the joins.
“Not very well-mannered,” Barricade said. “But it is not hurting you, is it?”
“No. It is…weird. Normally I can talk to Ratchet.”
Barricade filed the name away. He knew most of the Autobot team on Earth, but this one was now safe to use. “You can talk to them. They will listen to commands. Such as,” he raised his voice a bit. “Right shoulder.” The repair bot scrambled off Flareup’s head and began investigating her shoulder joint. “See? Or if you have a priority to repair, like audio-memory. They’d get to everything eventually, but sometimes they get hung up on non-essential repairs. Normally we trust them to do their jobs. Can’t imagine they d have anything interesting to say, though.”
“It seems wrong, though. That they’re just…well, machines.”
A typical Autobot philosophy. Sentience for everybody. So everyone can enjoy the miseries of self-awareness. “Does it look unhappy or happy to you?”
“Well, it doesn’t look unhappy. Or ill-treated.” He hadn’t even mentioned that other bit of Autobot propaganda. Even Megatron didn’t stoop to beating up repair bots. But Barricade filed that bit away, too.
“And be honest,” Barricade smiled, “Does thinking really make one happier?”
She didn’t respond, watching the bot’s delicate multiple limbs at work. The creature was entirely focussed on its job. “I saw one of these kill himself,” she said, finally. “That seems like sentience.”
“Fear is a very primitive emotion. Directly related to survival.” That answer didn’t seem to work, so a moment later, he added, “I’m sorry you had to see that.”
“They get scared.”
Yes, Barricade thought impatiently. We just went over that. Fear. Primitive emotion. Self-preservation. He bit down on his impatience. “That is why we keep them here. Where they can feel safe. They would not function well in combat.”
“Maybe that’s best. That they don’t see fighting.” Barricade felt the quiver of another hunch. Get caught up in things that bother them. Classical projection.
“You do not like to fight.” He kept his voice as bland as possible.
“No one likes fighting,” she said. Barricade bit down a snort. Clearly she’d never spoken to those idiots like Starscream or Brawl. “But we have to do it.” Ah yes, this tiresome Autobot line. Tell you how much they hate fighting. While they’re kicking your ass. No, really. We hate this.
“Do you?”
“Yes. You have to fight for what you believe in.” Nauseating platitude. For the ones who claimed to be more ‘civilized’ it always amazed Barricade how they boiled their ideology into such childish feel-good slogans.
“Admirable,” he said, proud of himself for not choking on the sarcasm. “What do you believe in?” No matter how this played out, he’d have something to laugh about afterwards.
“I believe in? Well, in freedom, of course. Freedom for everyone.”
“What’s freedom?” He tried his best to sound wide-eyed and curious like a newly-evolving drone.
She looked down at him with something like pity. Doubtless thinking she was going to enlighten him. “Freedom. It’s getting to be whatever you want to be.”
“But you have to fight even though you don’t want to. Are you free?”
She faltered. “Well, yes. Because no one made me do it. I could have done something else if I wanted to.” She continued, changing gears, “And besides, I can say whatever I want. I have freedom to have my opinions.”
“As long as part of that opinion is that Decepticons are bad.” He flashed a quick, sardonic smile. “I’m sorry. I do not mean to distress you. But did you ever consider that if we had all had this freedom you speak of, we would never have come to war?” He believed that like he believed Megatron had a sense of humor.
Flareup froze, exactly the same as if he’d suddenly pointed a laser cannon at her face. Even the repair bot looked up for a moment before busying itself oiling joints in her frame.
“Never mind,” Barricade said. “Philosophy. Mere abstractions. Let us speak of something more pleasant. Perhaps you could tell me more about your sister?” It sounded heavy and obvious as soon as he said it.
“My sister?” She looked wary.
“This Chromia. You mentioned her last time. You are worried about her?”
“Chromia is tough. She can take care of herself.” Hrm. She was blocking him. Wonder why. Time to back off.
“I am sorry,” he said, though in reality he wanted nothing more than to shake her til her ocular circuits popped. “I did not mean to pry. I merely wanted to talk about something less worrisome. What can we talk about that will not upset you?”
She got a crafty gleam in her eye. So obvious. “I would like to learn more about your kind.”
All right. He’d give her a show. “Certainly. What would you like to know?”
VII.
Blackout tried to be philosophical. Since Starscream outranked him, his word was a lawful order. So he needed to get himself repaired. But Starscream didn’t say where. The repair bots in RB Alpha scurried over to him as soon as he came in, swarming up his legs as he walked through the first room—ambulatory—and into the second. Regen was even farther back. He could hear the soft hum of the motor that kept Sideways in stasis, when or until Megatron finally decided reviving Sideways was worth the energon. But in the cradle clinic, he found what he was looking for.
“Wish I could say you’ve looked better,” he said to Ironhide, immobilized in the cradle. “But I kinda like this look for you.”
The Autobot’s blue eyes glared at him, but he said nothing.
“Know you can talk, you know,” Blackout said.
“What do you want?” Ironhide snarled. “To look at me? Make fun of me? Fine. Go ahead.” Repair bots laid open the Autobot’s arm casings, working to patch or replace connections Blackout had severed when securing him for transport. Ironhide gestured down at them with his chin. “Enjoy your handiwork.”
Blackout tilted his head, evaluating. “I am thorough.”
“I’ve got some other things you can call yourself, too.” Defiant to the last. Barricade probably had his hands full with this one.
“Actually,” Blackout winced as a repair bot pinched the coolant line it was working on. “Didn’t come here for that.”
“That Barricade send you? Figured he wouldn’t be able to do the job himself. Call in someone bigger and stupider.”
If the insult was supposed to hurt, it misfired. Ironhide didn’t know much about Decepticon rank structure. “He didn’t send me.”
“That bastard Starscream, then.”
“No. Not him either. Surprise you to think I might have come on my own?”
“Why? Beating up an injured bot build your character?”
Blackout waited so Ironhide could see the insult rolling off his back. “Want to know why you do it. You know they don’t appreciate it. You know they hold you apart for being too good at it.” Blackout stepped forward, the light glossing across his face. “For liking it too much.”
Ironhide’s eyes shuttered. “Don’t know what you’re talking about.”
“Sure.” Disbelief crammed into that one syllable.
“They appreciate me plenty!” Ironhide insisted, his head rising off the cradle. “Right there, alongside Prime. Every time.”
“So he can keep an eye on you.” Blackout grinned unpleasantly. “No? Ever go solo?”
“Go slag yourself.”
The repair bots swarmed around Blackout’s feet, nudging him toward a repair cradle. He tried to ignore them, but they were pathetic in their insistence. “Fine,” he muttered to them. “Just something to think about, Ironhide. You know, while you’ve got all this time on your hands.”
*****
He let them push him into a cradle, wincing as they lifted his broken rotor out of the way. He would learn to endure this. He would. That was the one thing Starscream had on him—his ability to take pain. The one thing that separated them. It wasn’t brains. It wasn’t combat ability. It boiled down, simply, to pain. And maybe that Starscream was a little crazy. But if he ever wanted to make it up the ranks, he had to overcome this. He could feel the pain gnawing at him, making it hard to keep a thought together. Making it hard to concentrate. His whole world seemed to hover around the edges of the broken rotor. Such a small piece, not even the size of the palm of one of his hands, taking over his entire concentration. He had to master this. Else he’d be stuck where he was, like Vortex. A dead-ender. Happy to serve in the most menial capacity. Honor and glory beyond him.
“Ignore,” he barked at the repair bots, who had clustered around the rotor. “Coolant line priority.” They scrambled in different directions: some to get replacement line, some for more coolant. Two or three got to work lifting the access plates of his armor. The rotor throbbed in its socket, the sensors overheating from sending their signals without reply. What humans might call an infection, burning through his entire rotor system. Nothing to do but think. Sit here, feel it, get over it. Get on top of it. All right, pain, he said in his mind. Here I am. Here we are. Let’s go.