The Energon Pub

The laughter masked a deep sadness.

As I grew up, he was there making me laugh.

If you're sad, please don't let it get to this point. Talk to someone. Even if that someone is on this site, even if you start a thread to reach out, just don't get to that point.

"Genie. You're free."

When I first read about it as the news broke, I thought it was a joke, an odd choice for a joke, but a joke nonetheless. When it became clear that it wasn't a joke, and the bare details were released. It was a shock, to say the least. It resonated with me a lot. I've been suffering from depression now a good 2-3 years, as I imagine others on this site have, or know somebody who does. I've been to the depths, hurting myself as punishment for being the way I am. At the bleakest moments, I wanted to kill myself, I tried twice, but I was stopped bot times by my wife. At the same time I have and I haven't seen the same depths as Robin. His problems were his own, his whole life making people laugh, yet inside he wasnt happy. Maybe he thought he wasn't good enough, or that people just thought he was a joke? I don't know, but whatever his demons were, they were serious.

I'm trying still to overcome my problems, in fact that was one of the main reasobs I came here, to Seibertron. I don't want to go to those depths again, especially now that Robin has gone. I want to get better for his memory.

To those out there that are critical of what happened because of their views or their beliefs. Don't forget that he was still a family man, someones husband, someones father. Your words won't affect him, but it will affect them. Now is a time to look at his life, celebrate it. Watch those movies of his that made us laugh or cry, or cry laughing. No one wants to be remembered for how they died, but the life they led. For those calling it selfish or an act of a cowardace, you don't know what was going on in his mind to even try to say what he should of done. In the times I tried, I was doing it to lessen the burden that I was to my family, to try and make their lives better.

So, farewell Robin Williams, I hope you find peace. I'll think of your family as I know your family will grieve for you as will your fans across the world.

Sorry for hijacking the thread with this. These thoughts have been building, and I wanted to say my piece. Agree, don't or don't care, I stand by what I've posted.

Mork went home.

ZeroWolf wrote:all that stuff.

*didnt want to mirror big post*

i hear you. im 30 years old right now, and ive probably suffered from depression since i was 12. i didnt even seek help until i was 26 or 27 and it was my mom and sister who eventually comvinced me something had to be done. i was a sad and very angry person for the majority of my life. but ive been medicated for the past few years and feel pretty good. only negative thing i do feel is stupid for npt taking action so much sooner.

also a couple years ago my best friend id known since grade school killed himself. no one, not even his girlfriend knew he was depressed. you never can truely tell whats going on in a persons head...

ZeroWolf wrote:Sorry for hijacking the thread with this.

Apology is not necessary. I'd rather see people hijack this thread if it means they talk and get things out instead of letting it well up inside.

Most wouldn't know this story but a few years ago we had someone on this site being suicidal, a lot of us were talking to him, we also contacted Ryan who was able to track down his details and get him the help he needed.

Burn wrote:

ZeroWolf wrote:Sorry for hijacking the thread with this.

Apology is not necessary. I'd rather see people hijack this thread if it means they talk and get things out instead of letting it well up inside.

Most wouldn't know this story but a few years ago we had someone on this site being suicidal, a lot of us were talking to him, we also contacted Ryan who was able to track down his details and get him the help he needed.

And he's still around today, but much better.


This is just so, so terrible. It's still so very perplexing to me that very often the ones that make people happy for a living are the unhappiest. I mean how long before Jim Carey does the same? I mean I know that the people that entertained me while growing up will all die before me, but I always thought and hoped they would die of old age, or long after I forgot who they where.

But so far we've had disease, accidents and suicides.

Burn wrote:

ZeroWolf wrote:Sorry for hijacking the thread with this.

Apology is not necessary. I'd rather see people hijack this thread if it means they talk and get things out instead of letting it well up inside.

Most wouldn't know this story but a few years ago we had someone on this site being suicidal, a lot of us were talking to him, we also contacted Ryan who was able to track down his details and get him the help he needed.

Thanks At least you were able to get to the guy and help him before matters turned to the worse.

Here's what JeremyJahns had to say about Robin Williams.