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I admit especially when I'm feeling down as fuk, I do wish our planet was invaded by these decepticons and I do wish I was in the middle of a damn plasma cannon blast. Theres times I wish those **** were real and would just unload bullets into me for some random reason or just because i'm human. Yeah as you can tell im sad, depressed, upset, **** up in da head, wish I'd get shot.
Im hoping things can work out with me and my man and I hope he doesnt kill himself, but im through with starting over, im seriously doubting i can "start again" with another person. or ill just live the rest of my life an old sour bitter bitch

Im not really the type kill myself but i would piss someone off to the point they'd shoot me

TattedPitbull wrote:I admit especially when I'm feeling down as fuk, I do wish our planet was invaded by these decepticons and I do wish I was in the middle of a damn plasma cannon blast. Theres times I wish those **** were real and would just unload bullets into me for some random reason or just because i'm human. Yeah as you can tell im sad, depressed, upset, **** up in da head, wish I'd get shot.
Im hoping things can work out with me and my man and I hope he doesnt kill himself, but im through with starting over, im seriously doubting i can "start again" with another person. or ill just live the rest of my life an old sour bitter bitch

Im not really the type kill myself but i would piss someone off to the point they'd shoot me

It's time for you to seek serious, professional help. I'm not saying that to be funny or mean. It's serious stuff when someone starts talking about killing themselves, and then lose touch with reality to the point they wish fictional robot characters would kill them? Well, that's pretty damn scary.

Do you need someone to call for help for you?

Play Gears of War and read the novels. Thats some depressing sh!t.

Autobot032 wrote:

TattedPitbull wrote:I admit especially when I'm feeling down as fuk, I do wish our planet was invaded by these decepticons and I do wish I was in the middle of a damn plasma cannon blast. Theres times I wish those **** were real and would just unload bullets into me for some random reason or just because i'm human. Yeah as you can tell im sad, depressed, upset, **** up in da head, wish I'd get shot.
Im hoping things can work out with me and my man and I hope he doesnt kill himself, but im through with starting over, im seriously doubting i can "start again" with another person. or ill just live the rest of my life an old sour bitter bitch

Im not really the type kill myself but i would piss someone off to the point they'd shoot me

It's time for you to seek serious, professional help. I'm not saying that to be funny or mean. It's serious stuff when someone starts talking about killing themselves, and then lose touch with reality to the point they wish fictional robot characters would kill them? Well, that's pretty damn scary.

Do you need someone to call for help for you?

i know you werent trying to be funny but **** weighs down hard, not usually this type but im falling further and further not sure if i really want help, i sometimes pull out myself and honestly ive tried counseling, pills all of it, and nothing helps. Ill just let myself go and see where things take me, hopefully things work out for the best but I am done with "starting over" with someone new, i really care about this person but his depression is eating him alive and he says its best for me to "start over" honestly i doubt i can start over i honestly see myself throwing up my arms and saying "**** it"

TattedPitbull wrote:

Autobot032 wrote:

TattedPitbull wrote:I admit especially when I'm feeling down as fuk, I do wish our planet was invaded by these decepticons and I do wish I was in the middle of a damn plasma cannon blast. Theres times I wish those **** were real and would just unload bullets into me for some random reason or just because i'm human. Yeah as you can tell im sad, depressed, upset, **** up in da head, wish I'd get shot.
Im hoping things can work out with me and my man and I hope he doesnt kill himself, but im through with starting over, im seriously doubting i can "start again" with another person. or ill just live the rest of my life an old sour bitter bitch

Im not really the type kill myself but i would piss someone off to the point they'd shoot me

It's time for you to seek serious, professional help. I'm not saying that to be funny or mean. It's serious stuff when someone starts talking about killing themselves, and then lose touch with reality to the point they wish fictional robot characters would kill them? Well, that's pretty damn scary.

Do you need someone to call for help for you?

i know you werent trying to be funny but **** weighs down hard, not usually this type but im falling further and further not sure if i really want help, i sometimes pull out myself and honestly ive tried counseling, pills all of it, and nothing helps. Ill just let myself go and see where things take me, hopefully things work out for the best but I am done with "starting over" with someone new, i really care about this person but his depression is eating him alive and he says its best for me to "start over" honestly i doubt i can start over i honestly see myself throwing up my arms and saying **** it"

Trust me, he's not worth it. I know those words are hard to read, but it's true. If he can screw with your head and your feelings like that, then he's not worth it. No one is worth your sanity, no one.

And yes, he does need help with his depression, and no he doesn't deserve to have someone turn their back on him, but he clearly told you to get away and get free from his downward spiral. You should listen. Sometimes people find their way back up from the bottom, alone.

You must let him heal before he can be with you. If you try and stick through it with him, he'll just drag you down even more, and he might even start to blame you for this. (I know, I've seen it happen.)

I'm not sure how old you are, nor am I asking, but I know you're young enough to still have a long life ahead of you, and wasting your time on someone who's telling you to go, is just a waste of precious time. You could find happiness, he could find happiness, and who knows, you two might even find happiness together...when the time is right.

That time, is not now. You must respect his wishes and do this not only for him, but yourself.

And if someone tells you to just "suck it up and deal", walk away. They're not worth backhanding, no matter how much you might want to.

Well if you want someone talk to let me know. I've just about any other the sun as little surprises me at this point. Either Pm me or reach at my email of Lastjustice@hotmail.com . I don't like sit idly by when people sound like they could use a hand.

While I can see why you might wish for that sort of thing to happen. When crap hits the fan people tend forget about the little things bothering them and focus to the big picture of trying stay alive. I know alot of people were scared straight when 9/11 happened.

Not that people need a disaster to realize these things, just when you get so wrapped up in your own world it's easy to forget there's more to life than your problems. I remember a time when I used think I had it so bad as a teen, as I was one angry individual for a long time. I got a raw deal,(bad enough that one of the people partially responsible still feels guilty after almost 20 years.) but I'd ultimately only seen the tip of the iceberg when it came to human suffering. People I met got way worse than I did. But since I understand where they were coming from they realized they weren't alone. That they could be ok too then.

Don't give up though, as long as you're both alive, there's always a chance to make things better.

i guess its my right to apologize and im sure i may have worried a few, if not made you pissed as hell but ive had a few minutes to calm down, had a couple glasses of scnapps...its always helps....and i went on a walk with my meathead of a dog...no i wasnt stumbling drunk but i was just walking to relieve some pain. I have to say i cannot leave him, he knows even if i would go on instead of standing by him I know he'd end his life seeing me with someone else, thus he'd regret me leaving and end everything. Thats why im staying srong for both of us, im usually not this way...im usually like the pit bull in all situations..meaning strong and stubborn as ****. I know he's hurting, why exactly i dunno but im standing by him for his sake and mine im holding onto us like a pit bull's lockjaw

TattedPitbull wrote:i guess its my right to apologize and im sure i may have worried a few, if not made you pissed as hell but ive had a few minutes to calm down, had a couple glasses of scnapps...its always helps....and i went on a walk with my meathead of a dog...no i wasnt stumbling drunk but i was just walking to relieve some pain. I have to say i cannot leave him, he knows even if i would go on instead of standing by him I know he'd end his life seeing me with someone else, thus he'd regret me leaving and end everything. Thats why im staying srong for both of us, im usually not this way...im usually like the pit bull in all situations..meaning strong and stubborn as **** I know he's hurting, why exactly i dunno but im standing by him for his sake and mine im holding onto us like a pit bull's lockjaw

Depression comes in many forms, for any rhyme or reason. If we knew how it truly worked, there'd be a cure for it. There isn't.

I commend you for wanting to dig your heels in and fight for this, but I still want you to be careful, because if you're not, he could drag the both of you down.

Here's the questions you must answer: Do you love him? Truly, intensely, deeply love him? Could you see yourself spending the rest of your life with this man? Could you build a life with this man? Answer those questions for yourself (don't tell us, it's none of our business, and out of respect, no one should ask you these for public answers.) Ask them for yourself, think hard on what your response is to each question, and proceed from there.

If you don't love him, and it's merely because you don't have enough gumption to start over again, then you're making a terrible mistake and it's not necessary to do so.

If you do love him, get him into therapy immediately, and be supportive. Whenever he makes you angry, don't let him see it. find an outlet for your anger and frustration where he can't see it.

If this is truly meant to be, it will find a way to work. If it isn't, then you must let him go so he can figure out his life.

Patience and understanding is key here.

I guess its my right to apologize and I'm sure i may have worried a few, if not made you pissed as hell but I've had a few minutes to calm down,

You don't need apologize for anything. You were rightfully upset. We all break sometimes.

I have to admit, i was totally crying when Dom found Maria and he did what he had to do. Poor Dom. Poor, poor Dom. Damn locust bastards.

vegetacron wrote:I have to admit, i was totally crying when Dom found Maria and he did what he had to do. Poor Dom. Poor, poor Dom. Damn locust bastards.

Wrong thread. This seems to be a habit...

vegetacron wrote:I have to admit, i was totally crying when Dom found Maria and he did what he had to do. Poor Dom. Poor, poor Dom. Damn locust bastards.

thats great...
awesome...
anyway i do have to agree with these fine fellows here
I have had tough times like yours and you should be careful and do whats right for you.if he can he will pull himself together if not and not to sound like a douche or anything but if not there are 6 billion people in the world...

things get better. i've had depression my whole life, but after i turned 24 it stopped bein so hard. bodily chemical changes and what not. (unfortunately it became anxiety attacks now, but those are a lot easier to deal with, bob marley style ).

Don't be afraid to seek out help if you or someone else really need it. No one is alone in this world unless they make themselves alone.

no (wo)man is an island

no (wo)man is an island

Unless you're a really massive transformer, and that's your alt mode hehe.

I've had depression for a time and had to take meds for it, so I've had some experiance with it.

One thing that worries me is that you mention that he'd kill himself if he saw you with someone else.
To a degree, you are probably right. When you are that low, something like that can set off a suicide attempt.

That means he needs serious, serious help. He is so low that he can be triggered, instead of being able to get over it in a healthy manner.
When you are severely depressed, you actually aren't in your right mind. Your reality 'alters' and you can't think positively, and your world feels bleak. It is because it is a chemical imbalance, not something that you can control.
Until you get him help, you might be walking on eggshells, because he will be a suicide risk. If he doesn't call for some reason, if he starts to act strange, if he threatens you, these all will be 'signs' that you would be wondering over.

Plus, he sounds like he's really dragging you under. If he were by chance to kill himself, would you end up following suit?
I am asking this because he seems to have some influence on you.

Just think, what would optimus say... if he were real.

Don't go doing anything stupid, like... anything suicidal just yet. Pleease! For me?