by Rodimus Prime » Sun Aug 06, 2023 7:35 pm
- Motto: "Individual freedom above all else."
There's a saying, at least in the US, "When it rains it pours."
That pretty much sums up my last 6 weeks of life. I nearly became homeless and had a 6-year relationship crash and burn almost simultaneously. She did swear that the 2 had nothing to do with each other, though I am skeptical, considering she had been lying to me for at least the last 2 years, as I found out later.
How does this relate to Transformers? Well upon my unforeseen and immediate financial hardship, I had to plan on selling off some parts of my collection, or even all of it if that's what it came down to. What surprised me was, I had very little reluctance to do so. It made me realize that I wasn't so attached to parts of my collection any more, and was actually happy to get rid of some of it. It's given me more space and allowed me to focus on the parts that I still care about, which are mainly the figures representing G1, especially the characters that were prominent in the comics, from the beginning of G1 to the conclusion of RG1. Also I kept the Beast Wars figures released during WFC as well as the select Studio Series 86 figures I like.
As for the circumstances that brought this about, I do have steady adequate income now, though my now-defunct relationship continues to wreak havoc on me mentally and emotionally. 6 and a half years is not easy to get over, though I do take small solace in the fact that I didn't actually marry her even if we got engaged. That bitch actually had the nerve to accept a ring from me even though she was already cheating on me when I proposed.
Also, my brief unemployment allowed me to take time to reflect on my life in general. I had realized I was getting wrapped up way too much in online life and social media, and it was dominating my actual real life I was living. It was the main cause of my employment issues, and what happened was a bit of a reality check regarding my priorities in life.
So now that I'm coming out on the other side of things (the money issues being much easier to overcome than the emotional ones) I have a somewhat new view on life, with a lot of my habits changed. I can honestly say that aside from dealing with soul-crushing heartbreak, I'm actually a happy and stress-free person. I used to spend hours on Facebook, these days I skim it for maybe 10 minutes a day. And I don't feel like I missed much. I stopped following the news online as well, and it makes for a much better day, because quite frankly, I just don't give a f**k.
I used to get into debates and arguments about politics and social issues and it was making me miserable without me realizing it. No more. These last 6 weeks have cleared my head on how important my life actually is and time shouldn't be wasted on pointless garbage, because time is the 1 thing in life you can't get more of.
Transformers as a whole has been going downhill in my opinion as well, in every aspect except maybe the newer figures being released. Otherwise, I have 0 interest in any new media, though the new comic does intrigue me mildly.
So all of those things combined (along with a couple issues I already had with a few people here) have caused me to become a much less active poster on the boards, and it will remain that way until the quality of the content and posts rise. I will continue checking the news for updates on new releases and news in general, but otherwise I have found that I lost my enthusiasm for Transformers in general, except for the rare aspects still near and dear to me.
But that's fine, my life is taking new direction in many other ways as well, so far looking like for the better.
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