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Hello, my name is Blast Cannon. And I have a borderline neurotic obsession with destroying France.

Blast Cannon wrote:Hello, my name is Blast Cannon. And I have a borderline neurotic obsession with destroying France.

And your problem is...

DesalationReborn wrote:

Blast Cannon wrote:Hello, my name is Blast Cannon. And I have a borderline neurotic obsession with destroying France.

And your problem is...

I hear that genocide is looked down on by the Human Rights Charter of the United Nations.

...

Wait a minute, who the **** listens to them anyway?

They've confirmed that I have:

OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder)

Generalized Anxiety

Clinical Depression (leaning more toward the Melancholic, they say.)

Emitophobia

So, I take Lexapro.

It lifts my mood usually, so I'm generally in an okay mood. I'm not nearly as anxious, and the OCD/Emitophobia takes a back seat to everything else.

When I don't have it though...depressed all day long, bored out of my skull and constantly think about everything and anything over and over and over.

They said that I had ADD growing up, but apparently it's gone. When I focus on something, that's all I do. Last I checked, ADD won't allow that.

Plenty of us seem to have mental disorders/issues. I wonder how many of us have true physical problems.

We all go a little crazy sometimes.

Moonbase2 wrote:Plenty of us seem to have mental disorders/issues. I wonder how many of us have true physical problems.

Do flat feet count?

Though I admit with exercise, orthodics, and bindings I've built up mild arches.

DesalationReborn wrote:

Moonbase2 wrote:Plenty of us seem to have mental disorders/issues. I wonder how many of us have true physical problems.

Do flat feet count?

Though I admit with exercise, orthodics, and bindings I've built up mild arches.

Supposedly that doesn't keep you out of the military anymore.

I had all that crap back in September, and that's the closest to any affliction of any sort that I have. Small Fiber Neuropathy.

Main thing I know I am is a neophiliac (obsessed with anything new & shiny).

I'm kinda leaning towards thinking I might have high-functioning autism. Nothing more than a suspicion, really, but I have looked it up online & it seemed to describe me pretty well.

Nemesis Cyberplex wrote:Main thing I know I am is a neophiliac (obsessed with anything new & shiny).

I'm kinda leaning towards thinking I might have high-functioning autism. Nothing more than a suspicion, really, but I have looked it up online & it seemed to describe me pretty well.

That might be Asperger's. I know before 13 or 14 I generally paid no attention to context in spoken word and took almost everything literally.

DesalationReborn wrote:

Nemesis Cyberplex wrote:Main thing I know I am is a neophiliac (obsessed with anything new & shiny).

I'm kinda leaning towards thinking I might have high-functioning autism. Nothing more than a suspicion, really, but I have looked it up online & it seemed to describe me pretty well.

That might be Asperger's. I know before 13 or 14 I generally paid no attention to context in spoken word and took almost everything literally.

In either case it'd be without the common clumsiness. I'm one of the least clumsy people I know. But mentally, I show several signs.

I suffer from mild social anxiety disorder. I find myself hiding behind a particular bookshelf in our library to avoid visitors when it hits, about once or twice a year.

I also suffer from dipsomania. Combined with a caffeine/sugar addiction= happy dentist!

As far as physical problems, I too am flat-footed. After 15 years of corrective efforts I was finally able to wear sneakers, but I still can't wear them on a regular basis 15 years after getting arches.

I also have a sternum irregularity that can be quite painful when struck.

Kamjiin also suffers from having to deal with MamaKitty on a daily basis. He says he doesn't have a problem with it, so I know he's crazy.

I've suffered from chronic depression and anxiety for most of my life. I used to take medication for it, but... since my own depression and frustrations stem from problems in my life, and solving those problems would more or less require me becoming a completely different person, I eventually got tired of doping myself into delusional happiness.

I used to be happy when I was a kid because I was completely oblivious to the effects my actions had on others and that I didn't fit in. I was also a complete jerk because of it. Now I'm (hopefully) less of a jerk, but I'm far more miserable. Guess you can't win either way.

Jeysie wrote:I've suffered from chronic depression and anxiety for most of my life. I used to take medication for it, but... since my own depression and frustrations stem from problems in my life, and solving those problems would more or less require me becoming a completely different person, I eventually got tired of doping myself into delusional happiness.

I used to be happy when I was a kid because I was completely oblivious to the effects my actions had on others and that I didn't fit in. I was also a complete jerk because of it. Now I'm (hopefully) less of a jerk, but I'm far more miserable. Guess you can't win either way.

Welcome to the human condition.

Autobot032 wrote:Welcome to the human condition.

Heh. I dunno, everyone else I know seems to be doing a hell of a lot better at the "human condition" than I am. There comes a point when you realize, yeah, it really is just you after all, which is pretty much when I gave up the medication.

Jeysie wrote:

Autobot032 wrote:Welcome to the human condition.

Heh. I dunno, everyone else I know seems to be doing a hell of a lot better at the "human condition" than I am. There comes a point when you realize, yeah, it really is just you after all, which is pretty much when I gave up the medication.

You only think others are doing well. I guarantee you that everyone from the tall to the small, rich and poor, young and old are failing miserably somewhere inside themselves.

No one's perfect, nor will they ever be. No matter how hard they try to make themselves into something they aren't.

Once you come to grips with that, things will move a little smoother for you.

Being human can suck plenty, but would you really have it any other way?

Autobot032 wrote:You only think others are doing well. I guarantee you that everyone from the tall to the small, rich and poor, young and old are failing miserably somewhere inside themselves.

Well, compared to my friends, I mean. I'm the only person in my social circle who doesn't have a significant other and family they're close to, who lives in a ratty neighborhood, who constantly has trouble getting and keeping a job that can let me afford to live on my own (I'm going to be laid off soon for the second time in my working career, from the *only* full-time job I've managed to land in the past ten years), etc. My friends have even commented on my seeming unending "bad luck".

I'm not concerned about being perfect, just actually having a stable and functional life. Doesn't seem to be something I can manage to achieve. *shrug*

Better to be alone than with the wrong guy. And You have to keep reminding yourself to stop stressing out over the things you cant control. I mean if you worry so much about everything thats wrong it keeps dragging you down which affects your attitude at work, which makes you work less effectively..... I've always found it better to forget about the outside world when I'm at work, I mean if I'm working I cant change whats going on with the rest of my life while I'm on the clock so why should I worry about it then?

Jeysie wrote:

Autobot032 wrote:You only think others are doing well. I guarantee you that everyone from the tall to the small, rich and poor, young and old are failing miserably somewhere inside themselves.

Well, compared to my friends, I mean. I'm the only person in my social circle who doesn't have a significant other and family they're close to, who lives in a ratty neighborhood, who constantly has trouble getting and keeping a job that can let me afford to live on my own (I'm going to be laid off soon for the second time in my working career, from the *only* full-time job I've managed to land in the past ten years), etc. My friends have even commented on my seeming unending "bad luck".

I'm not concerned about being perfect, just actually having a stable and functional life. Doesn't seem to be something I can manage to achieve. *shrug*

mine too. all my friends are gf or had ,and i´m the last virgin, a 21 old at that. ven my cousing who´s a fraking 16 old lazyf*ck as gotten laid and is on his 3rd gf....

MamaKitty wrote:Better to be alone than with the wrong guy.

Meh. Personally, I empathize with this guy:

General Magnus wrote:mine too. all my friends are gf or had ,and i´m the last virgin, a 21 old at that. ven my cousing who´s a fraking 16 old lazyf*ck as gotten laid and is on his 3rd gf....

I totally hear you there. I'm 27, and have had exactly *one* bf in my whole life... and he only dated me because he was lonely about his gf dumping him and thought I'd be nice to him. Of course, once she liked him again... poof, there I went.

Let me tell you, the whole thing where geeks get told, "You're nice, but I only like you as a friend" is NOT just limited to male geeks! ;P

In fact, I think in some ways, it's even worse when you're a woman. Pretty much all the dating advice I see falls into two categories:

1. Helping men get dates.
2. Helping women *date the right guys*.

The stigma/assumption being, if you're a *woman* who can't get a date, you're just totally hopeless. (Which brings me back to my "yeah, it really is just you after all" conclusion.)

MamaKitty wrote:And You have to keep reminding yourself to stop stressing out over the things you cant control.

Well, the problem is, stuff I can't control is where half my life is screwed up.

For instance, I get praise for my skills all the time from job placement agencies, yet they've admitted straight to my face that there's no jobs available for me. Three times (I just remembered another time it happened) I've gotten hired on because business was in an upturn and they needed new help... and three times I've gotten laid off because outside market forces caused things to suddenly go down the tubes. It's not my work ethic/skills that are the problem here.

Then there's the other half, which is I manage to fit into the rest of society's thinking not at all, which causes me a whole lot of other annoyances trying to buy things/get stuff done.

Like clothes, for instance; I must be the only woman in existence who hates buying clothes, because it's such a chore finding stuff that fits right and is attractive. (For example, am I really the only woman who would buy attractive shoes you can actually *walk* in? Everything nice-looking has ridiculous heels or giant platform soles!)

Anyway. I wish that my problems really did just stem from "bad thinking"... then I could fix them! Instead, I either need better luck or an entire personality transplant (or, more preferably, both).

Poor guys... =/ I don't even know what half these conditions are.

I'm a little shy and moody while being excitable to the point of hilarity but I don't think that could be counted as a mental problem, it's just who I am.

Also I am a firm believer that there is someone out there for everyone. If I can find a girl who is every bit as geeky as I am, there must be hope for others too.

Personally, I don't have any diagnosed problems, but my friends/family say that's because they haven't found a name for it yet... The only thing I can think of is that the State considers me to be of "Gifted" Intelligence, but even they hardly know what that all entails...

Jeysie wrote:Personally, I empathize with this guy:

General Magnus wrote:mine too. all my friends are gf or had ,and i´m the last virgin, a 21 old at that. ven my cousing who´s a fraking 16 old lazyf*ck as gotten laid and is on his 3rd gf....

What about me? You don't empathize with me?

Jeysie wrote:I totally hear you there. I'm 27, and have had exactly *one* bf in my whole life...

Wow, that's just like me. Literally. Except replace bf with gf. I had to look at the avatar to make sure I wasn't all of a sudden reading one of my own posts.

Jeysie wrote:For example, am I really the only woman who would buy attractive shoes you can actually *walk* in? Everything nice-looking has ridiculous heels or giant platform soles!

Get boots. Chicks in boots are hot.

Dark Zarak wrote:What about me? You don't empathize with me?

*looks back through the thread*

Heh, oh yeah, I can empathize with that. When I was growing up, I had a best friend where all the guys *loved* her and thought she was hot. So I got to hear an earful of her sex life all the time, while I couldn't get a date to save my life. I liked her fine aside from that, but I was seriously envious of her.

And while I wouldn't go so far as to say I ought to be male, I certainly don't think like most of the females I know, and I get along better with men. I sometimes joke I'm a gay man in a woman's body.

Dark Zarak wrote:Get boots. Chicks in boots are hot.

I *love* dress boots. But gah, the heels! If I tried walking around in the sorts of heels they have on most dress boots, I'd either twist my ankle or break off the heel with the way I walk. (I tend to always end up wearing down the heels of my shoes, both the inside and outside.)

So I end up having to go to a million different stores trying to find flat-soled boots, and they're never as cool as the heeled ones. Sigh.