God Thundercracker wrote:Sometimes I just feel like my life isn't worth living. I am ugly, I have no friends, my family wants nothing to do with me, and I don't even have a job. There is nothing good in my life, and I don't know how to change it except to get plastic surgery, which I can't afford. I am seriously feeling despair right now.
I'm sorry to hear that. Do you have a counselor you can talk to? I don't know if you are still in school or not but many high schools and colleges have free counseling services. If not I would ask your doctor, they should know where to find you someone good to talk to.
I have been there with depression and anxiety before. It sucks big time. It's not an overnight solution and its not easy but you are worth it. Trust me. It might seem like it is hard now but if you work at it you can make friends and have a job if that is what you want to do.
I can't tell you what to do besides to talk to someone who knows more than me. But I do know that I am glad that I didn't give up when things were hard. Heck, they still are hard some days but things have drastically improved since I started working on the things that were gumming up the works.
As far as friends go, you can find some online who have similar interests. Sometimes making friends is tricky because you have to be confident (which takes practice) and you have to work to maintain a friendship. Sometimes crap happens and contacts drop off for whatever reason and that's super discouraging. You just gotta keep at it and learn to care for yourself. You will get tougher as times go by.
((big hugs))
